Tuesday, June 30, 2009

my girlfriend is mad at me

this is mostly because of money and our handling of it

but there are other reasons, too

it makes me sad and i don't know how to respond for the most part

my most immediate response is "i want to die"

because i can't handle being the object of anger

and because i hurt someone and i disappointed them

and made them, too,

want to die, in small amounts,

yes, but no less familiar, no less like a fourth wall gone inexplicably



  1. An "intern," you say?

    I am always suspicious of quotation marks, but I am adding you to my "blogroll" anyway.

    I wish we'd gotten to talk more before you guys gulped down all that "water" and had to go ("soberly") home. Bummer.

    I will see you around. Duh.

  2. i don't know if i should respond here, but:

    hope to!